The Walls

Walls are whats built to make things sound and to keep things safe. They help hold up a structure, however we as people we put up our own walls to protect ourselves. Things happen out of our control to make us not trust anyone. Heart wrenching tragedies that hurt more than any physical wound make us as human beings insecure and we see everyone around us as untrustworthy, and incapeable of our love. So we build our walls high and make them solid to keep out intruders.

Then you have that one person after many that comes into your life and tares them all down. Now you're vulnerable and you don't even realize it. They come into your life, worked their way in and now they know you better than anyone. They know your secrets, your style, how you react in situations, and most importantly they understand your feelings almost as well as you do. I once told someone the first time I met you I made sure I didn't leave an impression because i was protecting myself. Then the second time I had to, because I had to know you. Now this is scary. Do we choose who we let in? or does it just happen? I think its both our heart after a while tells our brain okay this person is cool we can slowly let them in. Now the more we allow them in the more the gate opens and the more the walls fade away. It just happens, we have no control over it and for a while we feel safe.

Then one day something happens that changes everything. You felt safe you made a strong bond with someone then boom the ticking time bomb goes off and the walls that faded away want to go back up because this person betrayed your trust. Everything happens so fast too. One minute you want to tell this person everything every detail of your life and the next minute you want them to know nothing. Do we do this just out of habit? Just to make ourselves feel something other than sadness if that's the case, are our walls really a good thing to have if they bury our feelings?

I think what it comes down to is we need to learn to look past the hurt past the negative learn from it and turn it into something positive. As wells as figure out where you stand with the other person because we should never allow someone to be our priority while allowing our selves to be their option.We need to look back at the times we had with the person and know that most of the times we had were amazing. They were good and know that we don't regret anything about them. If we could do it all over again we would and we wouldn't change anything. Just remember to slow down at the best parts, because in life the little things are what makes it awesome and worth while.

So are these walls really needed? Do they really filter our the "bad seeds" not allowing us to be covered up by the thistle and weeds? or are they bad? do they disable us from experiencing something fresh, something new? Do they stop us from being who we are meant to be? or do they simply just keep us safe? no matter what the answer is I believe we'll always have them. Its just about finding the right way to deal with them. That's what makes all the difference.

                                And always remember.....