What and if are two words as nonthreatening as any two words can be; but put them together side by side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life. what if you had found your soul mate and what if you let them slip through your fingers?
Now a days I'm not sure many people believe in "soul mates " or "real" love. which to me seems disappointing, and just sad. some days I will literally sit and think for hours about how amazing it would be to have been born back in the 1800's when there was letters and flowers left on cobblestone door ways. when a boy would stand on the ground under my balcony as I stood in some very beautiful dress while he sang me a song that confessed his love for me. I think about the horse and the carriage rides, the nights we'd sneak away together because it would be the only time to be alone. This was the time when "teenage love" lasted forever, when romance was not a dying age.
So what do you do when you find that person, that one person that when you look at them you stare deep into their eyes and you know. You know that this person is the person that you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with. When you look at them you can see them, and they can see you. Would you let it pass you by, brush it off as just a feeling? If you choose to do that to ignore a feeling that could change your world and not just your world but someone else as well, could you live with that daunting question? What if? That decision is one that could make or break your future happiness, and your existence at a whole.
Could you go one day with out wondering what your life would have been like with that person. where would you have lived, what color would you have chosen to paint the walls, would you cook together or eat out, and most importantly what would have it been like to wake up each morning and see that persons face on the pillow next to yours? I know someone that let her soul mate slip away a long time ago. In which case it lead to unhappiness in other relationships and marriages. Which also lead to grief and pain in others lives, because of this I decided if it was me I would seize the moment, I wouldn't let go because I refuse to always wonder, what if.
Ever since I can remember I have believed in soul mates and love at first sight. I have always believed that their is that one person for me, that he is out there right now somewhere. I was once told that soul mates, true love, and love at first sight was a myth a fairytale to make little girls hearts swoon and make Hollywood millions of dollars on the "chick flick" movies. I however cannot and will not believe it. Everyone has a second half, sometimes you know right when you meet them, sometimes it takes a while. However most people just never find them or they have, and yet for whatever reason choose to spend their life wondering what if?
oh my gosh! you actually brought me to tears, while reading this i was thinking about Jacob this guy i met while in America, we were staying at the same hotel and is also from Queensland. as soon as our eyes meet i had the biggest crush ever and we got along so well. we never actually 'hooked-up' but spent every waking second we could with each other and we are always on the phone to each other but what really made me cry was thinking what if he lived closer instead of 10hrs by car... and as i am only 15 and he is 17 it is really hard to see each other. i love the photos, font and the plain background you used to emphasise your words, its really touching and you have such an amazing gift. xx
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